of a Non-Paradigm
Or How I Began...
I stumbled upon Chaos Magick about seven years
ago. I was performing rituals, with a friend of mine based on
Randomness and Quantum Physics. This all grew out of my understanding
of C. G. Jung's theories of Synchronicity and the Collective
We were using 10 sided dice mainly as a divination
technique. I wont get into the details here, but if you are
interested and want more info email
me I will see what I can remember. The Dice were
also used to perform various Magickal Workings, and we had many
successes. This form of Magick we were doing was, to us; experimental…
we just had fun with it at first. We took a lot from Physics
books like Taking the Quantum
and a brilliant book with these cartoon illustrations of a wizard
performing the said tasks (no not Taking
the Quantum Leap, it was a different book in workbook
style). If anyone out there knows the name of this book please
I must find this book again.
We spent a lot of our time running around an abandoned
Funeral Home Invoking our new found god Pan, ironically enough
we tapped into something there… we were using laughter as a
major part of this Ritual, Which plays a major part in most
Chaoists' workings. During this time I found an abundance of
Synchronicities happening in my life…I had really tapped into
what I needed.
Eventually, all things must end. My friend and
I lost contact. I still desired to carry on the Magick, that
we at that point already dubbed Chaos Magick, further. I kept
at it and added a few of my own tweaks here and there to it.
I was finally happy with my choice of a magickal path. There
were no rules, no rituals if none wanted, and what rituals I
wanted I could steal from other Belief systems. Complete Magickal
freedom was mine… finally. My best sessions were the impromptu
ones, I would just want to do something all of a sudden… So
I did it. I used whatever I wanted to launch my will into the
Aether, a cigarette, a car horn, the process of going to the
bathroom… Everything worked! At this point I had already come
to the realization that the only necessity in performing Magick,
was a genuine belief in what you were doing. This is the reason
why all paths work. Christians pray, and miracles happen for
them. Wiccans offer goods to their God and Goddess and they
are rewarded. They all work…its just belief. So I was content
with my surroundings.
I eventually had to break down and get a real
job…OH the horror… So I got a job at the world's most favorite
bookstore. It was there I first became aware of Peter J Carroll's
book Liber Kaos. I was
amazed at how closely related my ideas were to his… My first
real, solid proof of Jung's Collective Unconscious. I knew then
for sure I was on the right path for me. I read anything I could
find on Chaos Magick from that point on.
Now I am a happy camper. I still read whatever
I can find closely related to this form of magick, because one
never stops learning…we all are initiates infinitely. And I
have found plenty of others who share my views on Chaos Magic.
I consider myself a Chaoist with a Discordian view on things…
Hail Eris! All Hail Discordia!